This morning, while rummaging through some old books and papers, I found this brief  and lonely paragraph. It was inside of a notepad of writings I composed from 2002 to 2003. Most likely, it was written at some point in 2002, a couple of weeks or months after I was released from prison. I read it today and I hear a young man trying to gain a rational perspective on his feelings, trying to define his experiences, trying to make sense of his reality. What do you hear?

“I can only describe my post-prison state of mind as a confused mixture of ecstatic aimlessness and wonderful bondage. I was overjoyed at my release, but it wasn’t total release. It was reverse incarceration. For nine years my body was held captive with my mind free to roam the world through the portal of literature and vivid imaginings. Now, my body is no longer captive, but my mind remains behind the tall barbed-wired fences of an institution. I traded mental freedom and physical imprisonment for mental enslavement and physical liberties.”

18 thoughts on “Writings of A Recently Released Convict

    1. Hey, I was in the process of answering a second comment of yours, but then it disappeared. I don’t know what happened. Anyway, you had asked how long ago it was. I got released on June 1, 2002. I was incarcerated from June of 1993 to June of 2002.

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      1. I got saved in jail, before being sent to prison. The whole experience of being saved, the calm, the comfort, the peace that I experienced in jail after accepting Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior was out of this world. Without that horrific prison experience I might never have developed a relationship with The Father. I would not have chosen the prison experience for myself, of course, but I’m content with His will being done.
        Thank you for reaching out.
        God bless.

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  1. Absolute stability, precise perspective, and a soul anchored only by Christ. It’s reflected by your written wisdom.

    (I’d like to email the rest.)

    That’s remarkable and beautiful at once!

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      1. You didn’t get it? I sent it that day. I got it off of your site. It’s the second one I’ve sent you. (I’m laughing… it’s been a bit “off kilter” here lately!) All is fine, as always though. God is so good – how could life not be any better?

        Let me check.

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